Getting There...Well done, IGNYTE!

The young IGNYTE boys beat the Adult team 3-2 today. It was a good game which i would say, the young ones played with so much zeal and desire within them. I played the 1st half with the adults, and was 1-0 down due to a goalie's mistake. Nevertheless, i thought we attacked more, but if you don't make chances count, it's simply no use lamenting about it. I went over to IGNYTE and marshaled the defence. I need tougher opponents to get my form back. I lost it after our 3rd AGAPE match, and i almost don't know why though! Fumbled the first few touches, and i got myself back slowly. My reading and accuracy of clearance left me during the last 2 matches. I just felt lethargic and restless. Sigh! Almost 2 more weeks before our next AGAPE match, i gotta get myself back!



As i slowly get myself back on track, i was almost back to old self. Throwing my body all over the place, although i conceded a penalty with a handball, it was an equalizer though. As cool as usual, i am not gotta ponder about any mistakes and carried on my game. Slowly, i felt that i was coming back to the old Eric Gwee! Just a few more matches to fine tune myself should be enough. Let's wait and see! Within minutes, we were in front with 2 goals, and we were 3-1 up. Real spectacular and amazing! Within relentless effort, the adults came right at us, and managed to nick one back through a corner. Nerving moments followed, i kept my concentration and defended with every inch of body. The young ones were doing a tremendous job, and were so different from the way we played them during the 1st time. I really give it to them man! Finally, the final whistle was blown and it was a great game!



With that kind of zeal and determination, the young ones showed that sizes doesn't matter! In my prayers, i do hope that these kids will be able to play together for the longest time if they can. The way of how they approached the game and won it, i wish that it will be the same in their spiritual walk with God too. Never give up till the final whistle! Anyway, it was another tiring day for me. It may seen another sunday, but guessed i learned something from the youths today. It's somehow served as a reminder to me, it is to be humble and be a child again.



"Like newborn babies, crave pure spiritual milk, so that by it you may grow up in your salvation..." (1Peter2:2)



I believe that human always fall into complacency in life every often, likewise for me and it may seen like a verse which have been overlooked most of the time. Being an adult, it's ok to humble ourselves to able to admit mistakes we made. Humility takes huge courage and it helps us to grow more mature. So, being able to be a child again and humble ourselves does make us grow and and it's an act of grace as well.

Leaders' Summit Day 1

Still feeling the burden as i went on my way for Leaders' Summit. I started praying hard in my heart, as i met Melvin Cho at Causeway Point. It's definitely not the right time to feel this way, i want to enagage in the right spirit, i told Him. No matter what, the show must go on man, Eric!

We reached church and headed to ECP for our morning activities. Although we had some "complicated" rugby game, believed we had fun though. Haha! By the time we reached NACLI, its around 1430H. We began worship at 1500H...and that’s where everything began...

We started worshipping and i started asking God a lot of things. First is to ask Him to take away those burdens, so that i can just worship Him in awe. Secondly, what is His plans for me in this ministry, since He had called me into this, as i haven't felt right emotionally, mentally and spiritually. Those disppointments, failures, hurts and burdens have kinda taken a toll on me, and i know if this continues, i am going to go back to my past again. How many times am i going to fall, my Lord? Lastly, when will problems back home end? For a moment, i was able to sing praises without thinking of other stuff, i was getting to feel more of God. So many things i wanted to go bended knees, but was held back...Probably was because of pride, pain on knees and some other reasons. This time round, i just went down without thinking, i was desperate and needed a touch from Jesus, and wanna see things the way He sees.

Somehow, i began to see things and heard He speaking to me. That's what He told me....

1) It's just the beginning of your ministry, Eric! This is what I want you to do....
- Put every past disappointments, failures and hurts behind!
- Everything which you had fail to honor and fulfil before today (30 May'07), put them all behind!

2) This is going to be your ministry for years to come! Why and How?
- You are going to be spiritually renewed and regenerated in every area and aspects of your life!
- You are going to do great things like never before, and I will speak to you!
- You are going to be my testimony of UPs and DOWNs in life, "Fallen Warrior" and source of encouragement and motivation to others...

3) Family Situation and Struggles...
- When have i forgotten you, Eric?
- What about those favors you get from your superiors?
- Those "extra" jobs which came along your way?
Aren't those the blessings which come along? Therefore, be patient and wait for my call and timing, my child...Let's wait and see...There will be victories after victories, and you will see visions too, Eric!

The presence of God was so strong that i started tearing a bit, situation which happened once a while. I know it's Him speaking directly to me and He left me with this verse...

"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."
(Joshua 1:9)

All these happened on the Day 1 of the summit, and what was to come the next day was more affirming..Whatever was spoken above, i claimed it as a victory! Everything will be coming to past...Thank You, my Lord....