Whats Next...

Continuing form part 1, left me thinking about the crazy decision i made though...10 years of stability in SAF, and i gave up on that for one of the most controversial , insecure and unstable job of all in the media/entertainment industry. Well, not that something that i always dreamt of doing since young, but more of challenging myself to the next stage of my life. Looking things around, Derick and Patrick have gotten themselves a job and eased those burdens off my shoulders, Dad and Mum also working. It's time to move on, and knowing myself is not a person of great faith, this is one big step i am challenging myself to believe in.

I remembered walking out of Nee Soon Camp for the last time, and its kinda cliche to think that, it looked like 'walking out of prison' and you shouldn't turn back to take the last look of it. Nevertheless, i held no grudges against the organization but gratitude towards those who seen me through the years, despite complains and lamentations at times. (We are human after all, right?) I walked through the BTS canteen and memories flew through my mind, why such memories? Ironically speaking, i was enlisted 14 Feb 1999 into NSC, and I ORDed 1 May 2009 out of NSC. Memories of times that i used to run about at the parade square, the bunk which i used to stay in, the place where i heard about 'Casper', the canteen where i used to eat, the field i used to kena tekan by PTIs. (See the tree over??) All these bore the best memories because i think Recruit days are the most hilarious and naive time i ever had. Great buddies and instructors (although not many may testify to that..) Whatever it is, i believe everyone have their own Army stories to tell, and i shall leave that to myself...

Of course, there is a price to pay after deciding not to fully fulfill the contract. Contract was 12 years, but i left at 10th years. Despite just a mere 2 years difference, the price was 10k plus not including of CPF. I always have the $$ struggles, and i was quite prepared to give it up but not easy..With that amount paid up, its a brand new start of life. Thank God that i received enough jobs and somehow i broke even within 2-3 months. Each day i lived by faith and not knowing what would happen next..i maybe have 2-3 jobs a month, and nothing at all for the next 2 months. My life is really like shares market, emotional turmoil running up and down..Family, career, relationship etc took a toll on me at times, as questions after questions kept pouring onto me, and being as human as i am, questions kept ringing in my mind. Next i knew was at another stage of mental development of my life, despite thinking that i should be well-prepared after going through those tough times earlier with the family.

Nonetheless, i met awesome people along the way and they became the channel of blessings in my life. They became friends whom i believe i can trust and rely on in the days to come. These are angels whom i believe that God had sent, despite of different beliefs and values. Somewhere around in Nov, i got a connection and joined Upfront Models, and a new journey beings again....

Been Sometime...

Goodness me..i just realized that my last post was approximately 3+ yrs back..Thats the problem with me when i was contemplating whether to start a blog.I simply lack the discipline to maintain it.So, 2010's resolution is to revive this blog again. Its the 2nd month of 2010 now..wondering where should i start from..

Lets start from May 2009 i supposed..The month which i left SAF after serving 10 years in it. There are so much to talk about, really..Do i have fond memories of it? Will i miss those days?What are you gotta do? You sure? People had been asking me questions after questions. Normally, after telling them what i gotta do..They were like..HUH? Sure or not? Thats quite a 360 degree change of job and environment.

In 2007, i have been praying and asking myself if thats what i really want to do..1st thing came to my mind was the monotonous life in SAF. After serving for a numbers of years, i learned more about myself, as being a more adventurous and risk-taking person. I felt so stagnant and not feeling a sense of personal growth within myself. The world is bigger than anyone would have thought of, and i just cant see myself staying in SAF for the rest of my life . Moreover, i saw my 2 younger brothers having their respective jobs, and i knew that my responsibilities were almost done. No studies and textbooks, and sometimes pocket money. Although, the housing loan was still a big issue, but i seriously need to think about my future. I don't want to live a life full of regrets and not seeing the world out there. The restrictions in force wasn't doing me any good too, frustrations grew over the time, and came to a point that i thought it's time. 10th year will probably be a good year as i pondered for quite a while. Its always difficult to get yourself moving the 1st step but eventually i did. Drafting an Early Release letter was a headache and i still remembered, typing and deleting and still wondering if i should leave. After all, my career had been crafted nicely and steadily, everything had been taken care of, my CPF and stuff..Sigh! Eventually...i still came out with the letter and made an appointment with CO, and we chatted about it. Verdict was he agreed to that, and we settled a date and that's it! I am leaving SAF, my one and only full time job for the last 10 years. What's next??

Think its time to sleep soon..should leave it as Part 1 to be continued..Gotta stay fresh for a long day of recording with Channel U. Dancing??!! Goodness gracious me..How i got into this Channel U thingy? Still a long way before i come to that..For now..just be it.. Nitezz!